It’s Sunday evening and I’m wondering what God wants me to write about tonight. I had no intention of writing tonight, but I have so many mixed emotions right now. You see, I have a friend who is facing a tremendous mountain. I’ve walked with her for a few weeks now and have been encouraging her along the way. But quite honestly, unless God moves on her behalf, there is no way things will change.
I feel helpless. I know it’s not about me, but while I’m lifting her up in prayer, I realize my own faith is being tested. I wonder how I would handle the situation. Would I question God? Probably, I’d wonder, “Where are You? I’ve tried everything I know to do and nothing is working! Don’t You see my situation? I can’t sleep at night. I sit here all alone, wondering when you’re going to move. What’s taking You so long?
I’m sure you’ve been there before. Don’t you remember when you felt like God had abandoned you? Don’t you remember what it was like when everybody around you seemed like their prayers were being answered? So many good reports….so many testimonies of victory….but not for me. What have I done to deserve this? Why are You working for everybody but me? When will it be my turn? This is getting a little old.
What do you do when you have no more answers? You’ve looked at all your options and finally realize there are no more ideas. You’re exhausted. You feel like curling up in a ball and crying your heart out. Maybe you’ve already done that. And now you find yourself depressed. You ask, “How did I get hear again?”
As I write, I hear the song “I’ll wait for You! I’ll wait for You!” You hear a gentle voice reminding you that you’re not alone. You have not been forgotten. God, your Father, sees you. He’s with you, singing over you. Holding you, letting you know He is ever the God who understands how you feel. And He will see you through, even if you don’t know where you’re going. He reaches out and takes you by the hand. He knows your name. He whispers words of encouragement and wipes away your tears.
“Daughter, I ‘m here. I love you. I’m holding you in the palm of my hand. Don’t look at the storm. Look at me. Lie down. Lay your head on my chest. It’s a safe place. I will cover you with my wings, and you will find rest. Go ahead. Take a deep breath. Once more. Hear me say your name. Then say mine. For I am a breath away. Anytime you need me, whisper my name. Jesus….Jesus….Jesus. I’m leading you through the storm. Rest, my child.”
I hear another song, “Where He leads me, I will follow. Where He leads me, I will follow, where He leads me, I will follow. I’ll go with Him, with Him all the way.”
Friends, I believe God is teaching us to trust Him, even when we can’t see beyond our nose. I know He is Love. And that He loves my friend and He loves me. I feel her burden, but I must release that burden to Him. He is the ultimate burden-bearer. I choose to trust Him, to praise Him for His faithfulness. “Great is Thy Faithfulness! Great is Thy Faithfulness! Morning by morning, new mercies I see! All I have needed Thy hand has provided! Great is Thy Faithfulness, Lord unto Me!”
And so, I choose to rise! To sing a new song! To trust again, even if I don’t know what tomorrow may bring. He is my tomorrow.