What’s up with This Frustration?

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     Did you notice how foggy it was this morning?  In fact, when I called my daughter in Maryland and told her how foggy it was down here in Georgia, she said rather surprisedly, “Mom, it’s foggy here too!”  I don’t like fog!  Especially the kind of fog that lasts all day…just like today. 

    “Ugh, I wish the sun would come out,” I thought.  “Then maybe I could have a better day.  I could get outside and get some fresh air, maybe drive to the mall and meet a couple of friends for lunch.  But with this fog, I don’t feel like doing anything.  In fact, I haven’t even talked to my friends since last week.  I’m sure they have no intention of going outside today anyway.  They probably hate the fog just as much as I do.”

     Do you hear my self-talk?  I’d like to pretend these are not MY thoughts, but …. Yeah, I’m guilty of creating a dark cloud over my head, one just as real as the grey mist I’ve complained about all day.  I may not have said anything to anyone else about my attitude, but God heard me.  In fact, I’m sure I exhausted Him when I stopped at the Kroger service station to fill up my tank today.  I had just come from the hair salon (I know…not the best day to get your hair done.).  I had a quarter tank of gas and decided I needed to stop to get a fill-up, so I wouldn’t run out on my next drive. 

  “Oh, my gosh,” I thought.  “What a big mistake I made.  Why did I stop in this mist?  I’m sure by now my hair is starting to frizz.  I should have waited until tomorrow.”

     Okay, God, what are you saying to me?  I know you see my lesson today.  All right. I get it, too.  I determined my atmosphere by my self-talk.  The weather did not make my day.  My attitude did.  I already had it in my mind that it was not going to be a good day because the sun was not shining.  

     It’s taken me all day to realize I’ve been ignoring my Father.  In fact, my heart has been filled with complaints instead of gratitude.  My husband leaves the house and I tune into “Access Hollywood.”   Some kind of drama there.  Boy, these stories are really depressing!   Can’t stay here today!

     And so, I stop everything I’m doing, turn off the TV, lay my head back, raise my hands, and listen as I hear the song, “As the deer panteth for the waters, so my soul longeth after Thee.  You alone are my heart’s desire, and I long to worship Thee.  You alone are my strength, my shield.  To you alone may my spirit yield.  You alone are my heart’s desire, and I long to worship Thee.  Oh yes, I long to worship Thee. 

     And then the cloud lifts.  He has refreshed me.  He has renewed me.  He has embraced me.  And now I can refresh my sister. 

     Isaiah 40:31 says, “But those who wait on the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles.  They shall run and not be weary, they shall walk and not faint.”  May I add words from a familiar line of verse?  “Teach me Lord, teach me Lord to wait!”

     Sometimes it just takes a few minutes or seconds.  The benefits of waiting are immeasurable!

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