When I began writing about my life, I had no idea I’d be writing a book. Writing in a journal was my way of emptying out lots of frustration and anxiety about my day-to-day struggles. In fact, my private journal writing covered a good ten to fifteen years of my life. I wrote whatever I was feeling about pressures I experienced. But I always seemed to come back to three events which I wanted to do over if I could. I share them in my book, The Price of Pearls. I lived with regret for a major portion of my life, until I was almost swallowed by depression and realized I had to change.
I began entertaining thoughts about writing about my life about six years ago. I remember talking to friends about certain books they were reading and thinking I might have something to say, too. I finally agreed that there was an audience for my writing, women who struggled with self-acceptance. I remembered the times when I felt like I was on the outside looking at everyone else enjoying life.
I went into the whole idea of making my life an open book with fear and trepidation. I knew beyond a shadow of a doubt that God had given me an assignment. I could not shake the thought. Once I started writing I began telling others that I was writing a book. That was good and bad! Once I put the word out there, I had people checking to see where I was in the process. So even when I had days and months when I didn’t feel like writing, there was always somebody who would ask, “So how’s your book coming along?” Ouch! I thought they forgot.
I know we haven’t discussed how to determine what to write about, but I feel you should know that writing a book, especially one about your life, involves mixed emotions. If you’re struggling with roller coaster thoughts about the idea, welcome to my world…and that of other writers. We all go through insecurities. Don’t let your insecurities stop you! God calls insecure people to do great things! Duh! Have you taken a look at the disciples lately? He is not surprised by our feelings! In fact, they are the stuff He uses to prove He is able!
I promise we will talk about the process of deciding what to include in your book next time. Forgive me. I was feeling a little insecure about taking you there today.
2 Corinthians 12:9 (NKJV)- “My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness.”